Sometimes I have to remind myself that my toddler isn’t going to be a child forever.  Soon The Munch will be a woman, and no longer throw her facecloth in a fit of rage because she doesn’t want her mouth to be washed.  She will instead throw her shoe, probably at some guy’s head, but chances are her mouth will be clean.

The qualities of her personality that may annoy the shit-fuck out of me now, are the same attributes I want The Munch to have as an adult.  She is a very willful person, has strong opinions, is never shy about communicating what she wants, and has no fear expressing her discontent.  As a female, I think these are really important traits.

So many women feel disconnected to their own needs because they have become accustomed to prioritizing others.  I know in my own life I have the hardest time making decisions and not considering how it will affect those I love.  I have never done anything purely for myself and not felt insanely guilty.  Although I have opinions, I am afraid to share them if I fear they are too controversial or may hurt someone’s feelings.  It is not easy for me to communicate what I want if I believe my desires might upset someone, and I don’t always express my displeasure at someone to avoid confrontation.

I have definitely had to do a lot of soul searching to find my inner strength when it comes to dealing with people because more than wanting to stand up for myself I just want to be loved.  Love me okay? Please??!!! Will you just fucking love me already!!!??

So all these traits of The Munch I really respect, and want her to maintain far into her future.  But is there any way I can squelch her sprit just when I am dealing with her?  Like I could just dampen her spark until she is out of the house?  So maybe I wouldn’t have to fight with her everyday about going pee before taking a nap in my bed so she doesn’t pee while she is sleeping.  Is that too much to ask?  I am not that into doing laundry and people are starting to notice I smell like urine.

(Maybe if I wrap her up in a blanket there will be a barrier to absorb some of the moisture).